♥Perfectly unperfect LIFE

hope you understand :)

- 12.22.2009 -

ok , it was very hurt *a bit well a lot* when i knew he only as his sister.. /sigh
but what can i do ? hh i just pretend that *well* im okay, dont really care about it. hahaha .
well, maybe what i feel rightnow, i can take him only as his brother, or at least a bestfriend for me :)

" Sekian lama bersamamu
Kau selalu menyenangkan
Ku berikan perhatian
Dalam sekian kesempatan
Kurasakan ada sesuatu
Yang kubaca dari
Setiap tatapan matamu

Jangan engkau pernah menduga
Aku mengharapkan kau jadi
milikku
Itu tak mungkin terjadi
Sungguh aku tak menginginkan
Yang kuinginkan kau jadi
sahabatku
Semoga kau mengerti

Perhatian yang kau beri
Takkan pernah kulupakan
Tapi jangan kau artikan
Kuingin sesuatu yang lebih
Kurasakan ada sesuatu
Yang kubaca dari
Setiap tatapan matamu
Jangan engaku pernah menduga
Aku mengharapkan kau jadi
milikku
Itu tak mungkin terjadi
Sungguh aku tak menginginkan
Yang kuinginkan kau jadi
sahabatku
Semoga kau mengerti "

< 1:18 午後 >

best friend is the most important person

- 12.19.2009 -

yes . finally i realize that the most important person is my best friend.
Ok, maybe i like him , but still he is my best friend . so, i will not look him only by "LOVE" side .
hehe .

Ok, maybe it will hurt me , if he had a girlfriend , but i'm proud to be his bestfriend . because , in bestfriend , there are N-O end . but in realtionship the is an END :DD so its ok with me anyway :DD lol

Baru kusadari kini
Kau teman setia untukku
Teman berbagi ceritaku
Kau memberi indah dalam hidupku
Kini kumengerti
Inginkan terbaik untuku
Inginkan aku terlihat sempurna di dalam setiap langkahku
Kau ajari aku menjadi dewasa
Singkirkan emosi diri di dada
Menjadi sosok yang bijaksana
Kuingin engkau selalu ada dalam hidupku
Walau tak slalu bersama setiap hari
Jangan kau pergi tinggalkan aku sendiri
Genggam erat tangan ini jangan kau lepas lagi
Teman setia ku
Sahabat karibku
Teman sejati ku
Kau sahabat terbaik untukku

< 9:28 午前 >

bussyness

- 12.18.2009 -

hh . the things go so bussy ><
i cant help it . and i'm blessed because it is over NOW . ahaha .
but i have *plantikan* which in 26 until 27 december, i'm gonna have fun with "him"
haha.
i cant wait it ,
and YEY . i have outdoor activity with my classmates and all of the first grade student :D
it was veryvery FUN . ahahha
I took photograph everywhere . i like it very much :)
ahahaha .
OK then , maybe thats all for the post :D
see ya :D

this is my friend :DD

< 9:42 午前 >

h a h a :p lols

- 12.08.2009 -

ok . everything going very busy rightnow . too many assignment and too many test that drive me CRAZY .
and that makes i couldnt meet him as usual, but i'm so happy when he did come to my class just to meet me :D lol .
What i couldnt believe is that i teach him math . hahaha .
:DD
he was very glad cause i can make him understand *sigh* ahaha .
:D
well, thats all . im a kind of busy .
lets meet in a last post :D

< 12:27 午後 >

bestfriend become love ?

- 11.29.2009 -

hh- it doesnt go very well so far (-.-) i just cant believe that i'm in love with my best friend . argh . (=.=a) Ok , we've been a very best friend for 3years and now everything feels different .
Its been so difficult for me and him . and now i don't know what i'm going to do with it . =.=
he said to me just leave it like that, not need to accept or ignore the feelings.
we stayed at school very late, and on that time he sang this song to me.

(zigas - sahabat jadi cinta)

Kuhantarkan bak di pelataran
Hati yang temaran
Matamu juga mata mataku
Ada hasrat yang mungkin terlarang

Satu kata yang sulit terucap
Hingga batinku tersiksa
Tuhan tolong aku jelaskanlah
Perasaanku berubah jadi cinta

Tak bisa hatiku merapikan cinta
Karena cinta tersirat bukan tersurat
Meski bibirku terus berkata tidak
Mataku terus pancarkan sinarnya

Kudapati diri makin tersesat
Saat kita bersama
Desah nafas yang tak bisa teruskan
Persahabatan jadi cinta

Apa yang kita kini tengah rasakan
Mengapakah kita coba persatukan
Mungkin cobaan untuk persahabatan
Atau mungkin sebuah takdir Tuhan

oh my god ~ aaa . i'm so shy .. suddenly my face become RED like A-P-P-L-E . rawr.

ahahahaha :DD

well, i think he is right. All i need is just been relax.

Ok, if someday he will leave me as the person that he loves. but I will NOT be okay if he leaves me as his bestfriend, i will be VERY angry with him . :p ahaha .

well , just let it flow, take it easy .

but then i hope , we would be a couple too , amin :D

he makes my world brighter than ever . god please help me with him :)

< 12:07 午後 >

BORING *again*

- 11.24.2009 -

well . its been veryvery BORED in this week.
Well, on sunday, I went to my middle school . Oh no, i miss my middle school so much D:
I went there because I coach my junior *again*. They will have a competition for english speech. Well, I am very proud of them because they've got the 1st winner which means that I am a good coach. I love coaching so much :3
hahahahaha .

Woo. Today I will hangout with my bestfriend , well because he joined the acceleration in middle school , so now he is my senior. and he wants me to call him in veryPOLITE way. *what the hell* D:

Y-E-Y , tomorrow we wont study :DD hihihihi . ILOVETHAT .

but then , the day doesnt seems going in a good path ):
I really kind of bored of such a things ..
hhh~
really *oh my god*
huhuhu .

maybe thats just for a post for today. I dont really know what I'm going to write ..
*sigh*

I hope tomorrow will be twice more better

< 11:33 午前 >

so unbeliveable :D

- 11.20.2009 -

ahahhaa . well, my mom didnt buy me iphone , but she did buy me Nokia 5530 XpressMusic :D it is so cute , major cute with whiteandblue color :D I'm so glad to have this . It is also touch-screen TYPE .

*look how cute it is :D*

I will take care .. I promise .. :))

well, today I have a Balinese TRADITIONAL dance "TEST" ! oh my .. I can't do that ..
D:
very embrassing T . T oh my ..
hahahaha

well , yeah Im getting to excited with my new handphone :) hahahaha .
Today there is no math lesson in my class, because the teacher went to Jakarta ..
*sigh*
I like math so much thats why I'm so dissapointed , really .
well . maybe only that for today . I dont really know what will i post for today :D
thats all :D
just unbeliveable .
ahahaha :D

wish tommorow will be more unbeliveable perfectly unperfect day of me :)

< 1:33 午後 >