♥Perfectly unperfect LIFE

bestfriend become love ?

- 11.29.2009 -

hh- it doesnt go very well so far (-.-) i just cant believe that i'm in love with my best friend . argh . (=.=a) Ok , we've been a very best friend for 3years and now everything feels different .
Its been so difficult for me and him . and now i don't know what i'm going to do with it . =.=
he said to me just leave it like that, not need to accept or ignore the feelings.
we stayed at school very late, and on that time he sang this song to me.

(zigas - sahabat jadi cinta)

Kuhantarkan bak di pelataran
Hati yang temaran
Matamu juga mata mataku
Ada hasrat yang mungkin terlarang

Satu kata yang sulit terucap
Hingga batinku tersiksa
Tuhan tolong aku jelaskanlah
Perasaanku berubah jadi cinta

Tak bisa hatiku merapikan cinta
Karena cinta tersirat bukan tersurat
Meski bibirku terus berkata tidak
Mataku terus pancarkan sinarnya

Kudapati diri makin tersesat
Saat kita bersama
Desah nafas yang tak bisa teruskan
Persahabatan jadi cinta

Apa yang kita kini tengah rasakan
Mengapakah kita coba persatukan
Mungkin cobaan untuk persahabatan
Atau mungkin sebuah takdir Tuhan

oh my god ~ aaa . i'm so shy .. suddenly my face become RED like A-P-P-L-E . rawr.

ahahahaha :DD

well, i think he is right. All i need is just been relax.

Ok, if someday he will leave me as the person that he loves. but I will NOT be okay if he leaves me as his bestfriend, i will be VERY angry with him . :p ahaha .

well , just let it flow, take it easy .

but then i hope , we would be a couple too , amin :D

he makes my world brighter than ever . god please help me with him :)

< 12:07 午後 >

BORING *again*

- 11.24.2009 -

well . its been veryvery BORED in this week.
Well, on sunday, I went to my middle school . Oh no, i miss my middle school so much D:
I went there because I coach my junior *again*. They will have a competition for english speech. Well, I am very proud of them because they've got the 1st winner which means that I am a good coach. I love coaching so much :3
hahahahaha .

Woo. Today I will hangout with my bestfriend , well because he joined the acceleration in middle school , so now he is my senior. and he wants me to call him in veryPOLITE way. *what the hell* D:

Y-E-Y , tomorrow we wont study :DD hihihihi . ILOVETHAT .

but then , the day doesnt seems going in a good path ):
I really kind of bored of such a things ..
hhh~
really *oh my god*
huhuhu .

maybe thats just for a post for today. I dont really know what I'm going to write ..
*sigh*

I hope tomorrow will be twice more better

< 11:33 午前 >

so unbeliveable :D

- 11.20.2009 -

ahahhaa . well, my mom didnt buy me iphone , but she did buy me Nokia 5530 XpressMusic :D it is so cute , major cute with whiteandblue color :D I'm so glad to have this . It is also touch-screen TYPE .

*look how cute it is :D*

I will take care .. I promise .. :))

well, today I have a Balinese TRADITIONAL dance "TEST" ! oh my .. I can't do that ..
D:
very embrassing T . T oh my ..
hahahaha

well , yeah Im getting to excited with my new handphone :) hahahaha .
Today there is no math lesson in my class, because the teacher went to Jakarta ..
*sigh*
I like math so much thats why I'm so dissapointed , really .
well . maybe only that for today . I dont really know what will i post for today :D
thats all :D
just unbeliveable .
ahahaha :D

wish tommorow will be more unbeliveable perfectly unperfect day of me :)

< 1:33 午後 >

monotone, black and white.

- 11.18.2009 -

Today i didn't go to school anyway . because i can't wake up *sigh*
well, I've got the 6th episode of 君に届け(see the post below). yeey ! So happy. Kazehaya-kun is so major cute and handsome and cheerful boy :D

picture of kazehaya *see , he is so handsome :D*

Today is a rainy day . wow. I remember something, when i was in junior high, me and my bestfriend. we always sings, Mr. raindrop 's song :) hahaha . and i also remember my ex-boyfriend, which now he is my senior at school and he is also very good at computer , now he goes to the olympiade of the computer.
talking about boyfriend, i dont have any right now :D
ahaha .

Oh yes, remembering of yesterday, which i said in the lastpost that i went to McDonald's with my senior, actually we did . and it was very fun ! She really makes me happy, well very happy .
We talks about me, my problem, and talk about her and her problem, and actually we did gossiping someone. ahahahaha :D *gossip girl* we do looks like a sister .. oh my god :D ahahaha . and then , she LOST her motorbike and also the KEY . what the hell ???!!! I am the one who was very panic on that time. than Finaly *sigh* the security collected it. hahaha . was a nice experience :D

well, I can't online away too long , because tomorrow i will have a mathematic, actually logarithms test :D ahahaha .
so i should STUDY :D

well, i hope i will reach my happiness,

< 7:06 午後 >

almost reach the happiness :D

- 11.17.2009 -

well , even though this week didnt go very well , but i think my life almost reach the happiness.
yesterday was a very boring sunday (- . -) and quite crazy.wierd too .
yesterday i was playing the facebook , when there was a person which come from france chat with me. at first i though that he was a kind person , but then he is very are PERVERT.
i hate that person SOMUCH .

ohmy oh my ! my mom gonna buy me a iphone this wednesday !! LOL . i was very happy . just cant wait , because my handphone *now* was very broken and i hate this phone (- . -) i just wanna throw it away . farfar away :D
*evil laugh*

this is my phone wanna be :) i like it

wow , today is my korean partner birthday :D i hope god always bless her :)

YEY . today i'm going to have a lunch with my senior at Mc Donalds . She is my senior but much look-like my big sister to me :) oh my , she know that i want to eat Mc Donalds .. those TRIPLEburger .. :)) wow..
I can't wait ! and today my mother will pick me up and go to someplace .
waa , i cant mention how happy am i right now .
Its just too happy .
I would like to say to my senior thank you very much ,
because of her i want to go to school . :)
she understands me very much :D
If it not her maybe i will still stay at home right now and watch the movie .

Oh my I am so happy .. :DD

< 11:27 午前 >

long pose by SICKNESS

- 11.15.2009 -

i didn't go to school for two days, life
start with 3 days ago :D
I got a bigFIGHT with my sister , ahaha . I'm sure it makes my mom headache . hahahaha x))
well .my sister did scratch me, so there is a scar in my hand !! :@
but well, i did scratch her too :DD ahaahhaa . actually we fight at the CAR !
but sometimes we are so close , and lots of people said that we look like twins :)
but actually i love my sister :DD

*this is me and my sister*

Then in the afternoon about 02.30pm i went swimmingpool with my classmates to practice . well, i though it was a test at the first time so i attend , but then it was just a practice. how pathetic I am *on that time* arrah ~
so because of that i got a fever . and i slept very late , actually at 12.00 o'clock because i watch movies :DD ahahahaha .

so thats why i couldnt go to school .
My parents got angry with me . actually my boyfriend did it too ):
he was very very angry with me .. *but i'm glad that now he isn't angry*
ahahaha :D

Btw , last night i had a dream about me and my bestfriend .
well, she did leave me to singapore . )):
I miss her very much . she is like my sister , my soulmate .. Where ever we go , we always together .. but now we are seperated . but now, I chat with her .. Oh my god i almost cry

*this is me and her , when in juniorhigh-2nd grade*

well then , that is my story for long time posting day :)
I hope tomorrow I can go to school , and I hope I will post something .
*hope i dont forget* ahahaha :)

< 2:38 午後 >

O , my throat

- 11.11.2009 -

hh . i dont know what the hell is happening with my throat , all i know it makes me feel very uncomfortable

I really adore 君に届け's anime .. but i didnt see it on the youtube. i'm still waiting.

biology assignment make me sleep at 11 o'clock yesterday . but i'm a kind of enjoy to make this assignment . i'm glad i could help my team mates because i can use pphotosho :D
ahaha . LOL . finally i finished that :D

i dont know why , suddenly i miss the korean student from AHS of KNUE high school .. ):
but still we communicate by facebook or e-mail . but still i miss them so much ><>

this is our picture at the basketball court next to my school :DD

i miss them so much *did i say that already?*

Well, i think this all for today's post . because i'm doing this in the middle of lesson . but , it doesnt mean i'm bad , because there is no teacher , and the teacher left us an assignment and i finished that already= not 100% bad student *i guess*.
i hope next post will be more fun for my monotone and unperfectlife .

hope tomorrow will be better -

< 9:37 午前 >

the first day :D

- 11.10.2009 -

I already make this kind of the blog for 5 times . But i always forget the e-mail or the password *what the hell* but then i make it *again* ahahaha :DD
but it quite fun to make a blog again and again . editting BLOG kind a fun thing for me . LOL
i think i would always update my blog *i hope so*

btw, all of the school assignment drive me crazy ! i need a holiday somehow >< I just wanna make my own holiday ! *evil laugh*
especially , i have the debate pratice and i didnt attend the lesson for a several times .

really , it was very NOT good at all . cause at home I should study again or i wont understand ANY and mom would KILL me instantly .
Well, I think my highschool life isn't fun as my life in juniorhigh . because I have to adapt with many people too .
somehow I did miss my juniorhigh life. Even though many people said that highschool is the most fun part of our life *well, i dont think so*
But , maybe i will take that as the same when i was in the first grade of juniorhigh . it was quite hard too .

Nowdays, i am very interested with one comic with the title "君に届け" which it means reaching you . it was very nice comic that i have read in my whole life . And also i like the drawing :DD LOL . well this is the picture actually its the book cover *haha*

well i will continue this to the next post :)
*I hope this day will end-up with happy ending*

< 11:38 午前 >